current motivation level is close to zero.

the holidays aren't supposed to be like this! i actually have too many things that i want to do but i can't get about doing them. i know i don't have time. i don't wanna rush and do them all and feel like time went by so fast, yet i don't want to laze around doing nothing productive even if that's exactly what i'm doing now. only about a month and a half left.

i hate mentioning time capsules but i mention them anyway, eh?

there are things that really need to be done. my heart is somewhere else. feels like it's everywhere but here..? not settled. not settled.

i would like it if my life roughly went like this:
play badminton once a while in the mornings,
go for japanese lessons and study nothing else but japanese till i get better,
have a part-time job,
and when i'm not working i'm doing my own stuff that i really enjoy (see column on right),
sleep ultra late and wake up ultra late!
and of course i would like to go on holidays occasionally.

boohoo 3 more weeks till friggin' JLPT 2. feels like i can't make it. hang on, i already feel like i can't make it for h2 japanese. even if i do make the b3 mark it's like... i know what i'm getting myself into. among the rest i'll be one of the lousier ones for sure. you have crazy people who reads the Japan Almanac(!!!) every night wtf. they know all the day's oil prices wtfbbq! and what do i know? rock, rock, and more rock. i can't compare to that! okay i digress; 3 more weeks so i gotta start studying. wish you were me, don't you?

teehee X more days before i lock this place up, save it for keeps, and (maybe) move to somewhere else. like a japanese weblog hosting site. i'd write short japanese entries, and cuss in english! if i disappear for good it's also fine, i have a secret hideout 8) the days are numbered dundundun.

ai's going to tokyo to do her university. misato's coming to singapore in february. after my birthday i think. masa's coming soon! my host family (mom, that is) replied my letter. fucking shi-a-wa-se (blessed, happy, fortunate) for that! XD she sent me back neoprints of her daughters i think tomoka is na-ma-ra men-koi (hokkaido dialect for very/damn cute/pretty)!

this post lacks love for reita so here you go. he's so funny he's always like 'SEE YOU AT THE LIVE THEN, I WANT YOU TO RIOTTTT!!!! RIOTTTTT!!! GIVE ME SOME CHAOS!!!!!' but he never fails to add 'okay but take care, and be careful about injuries' XDDDDD wtf O____o; rockstar alright. he does things like doing a live with a 39.5 degree fever and says 'i feel ok' and then totally ruins his body after that. or like he spins round and round at high speed with his bass and then trips on his shoelaces and ends up as the band's laughing stock for the night. that badass dork i want to hit him on the head with his bass haiiiiiyah! XD me be jumpin' flyin' ninja!

reita: (everyone preparing for climatic ending and then--) *trips and sits down on floor playing his bass*

backstage:
reita: *sits on couch tying shoelaces* cause i was spinning around at the end, i tripped :\ *dorky laugh*
aoi: *points at reita and tells the others gleefully* in the end he's all-- *reenacts reita by flailing his arms holding a towel and falls to the floor in a prissy manner* (does it twice! XDDDD mean. that's over-exaggerated!)
everyone else: ahahahahahahaha!!!!

i also believe that i did a post before on how he tried to get (force, maybe) the rest to repeat after him: 'say NO to drugs!' wtfbbq best campaign ever, win! XD

and then like he always does, even though you have things like

reita: *gives cameraman the finger randomly*
uruha (standing beside): you're annoying. you're mean.

but actually he's one who often says 'don't catch a cold!' and 'drink lots of water!' did i mention that he's concerned about global warming? 8] very rockstar-like o_o

i still love his bike by the way.